Working where I work allows for a different scenario every day. I’ve never been happier at a job in my life. It’s like my second home.
Sometimes I feel as If I have no where to go emotionally. Like my emotions are bottled up in me and they’re not going to go anywhere anytime soon. Today I had felt that same tray of emotions. As of right now, I could say I’m feeling better, but I’d being lying if I said that and didn’t inlcude — my emotions are flying wild right now. Through the ups and downs, one of the worst things in life for me is a heartache. Whether I’m just hurting inside because of something small or something big, it’s a horrible feeling and I seem to be experiencing this feeling a lot now that I am a junior in highschool. Are there ways to cope with this killer emotion? I honestly haven’t found many ways myself. You can do a google search for this sort of thing and find results. But in reality, many of us can’t shake this feeling off our chest even after becoming aware of possible solutions, or methods to this emotional problem.
I would love to have an answer for my problem which stands right here in front of me currently. My problem, a majority of the time, is that… I just can’t seem to get my mind off of what is hurting me and dragging my day down. I try and try and keep trying to think of other positive things that would possibly cheer me up, and allow my mind to run free with thoughts that wouldn’t hurt me. Somehow, it seems almost impossible. Seeing a text notification on your phone from the person that is making your emotions run wild, or seeing a snapchat of that person, seeing that they ‘read’ your message or ‘opened’ your snapchat. These are all tiny things that are helping contribute to my sadness. It sucks, to be quite honest. Those are all things that I wish I could have the mental stability to brush off, but I don’t. My hopes being that someday I will have the ability to do just that.
Let me share a fact with you. This blog post that you are currently reading, is the reason I am currently not feeling any of what I was feeling before. I’ve been writing this for 15 minutes and it’s been a very relaxing 15 minutes. I am able to express my feelings freely, worry free. I am able to write a post that might miraculously help someone else out someday. I don’t really have a point to all of this, but if I had to state one reason as to why I’m writing all of this, it’d be that… ‘I am ready to free the worries of my mind and provide myself with a happier life.’
Jentacular – pertaining to breakfast
Gabelle – a tax on salt
Erinaceous – of, pertaining to, or resembling a hedgehog
Oxter – outdated word meaning “armpit”
Ulotrichous – having wooly or crispy hair
Zoanthropy – delusion of a person who believes himself changed into an animal
Alot of times I just want to cry but I don’t want everyone to notice me, stare at me, or ask me what’s wrong. I want everyone to continue what they’re doing and not even notice me crying. Because crying is a big stress and pain reliever for me, and my life would be a lot easier if I could cry when I wanted.
Here’s to a post that means absolutely nothing it’s just to relieve my stress. So here’s the things that really bug me…
- When people don’t reply
- When people use ok, Ik, yep, cool, and idk a lot over text
- When I’m tired but I wanna do something
- When I’m craving a food and we don’t have it
Life is actually so beautiful and I don’t know how in the world I take it for granted sometimes. The sunny days when I lay outside and tan. The days that are sunny and rain happens to fall. You get a beautiful rainbow. And even the days that are gloomy and dark, I shall never take for granted again.
The title pretty much says it all. Don’t you wish you could read minds? Don’t you ever wonder why you thought of something so weird? • Here’s your chance to read what’s on my mind…
There’s really nothing on my mind right now… and tbh I feel like I look as if I’m Asian atm. I’m staring at my iPhone screen and my eyes are squinting. Someone just flushed the toilet in my house….. I’m soooo weird. I haven’t checked my private Twitter in like 20 minutes, I’ll do that after I’m done writing this blog post that no one will ever read 😦 Haha whatever, I actually don’t care because I’m tired. I really don’t want to go camping because I’m tired and #lazy. Oh yeah and I like to use hashtags to get more likes on my Instagram posts…. In hope that someday I’ll be…..famous. I’m never going to be famous because whenever I see famous people, they all wear buckets of makeup it seems like and they all have talent that we all wish we had, but don’t. Now I’m closing my eyes hoping I don’t make any typos. Can I just go to sleep? No I can’t because any moment I’ll be interrupted by someone in this house. I can hear my dad, here he comes down the stairs… *Please don’t talk to me, or see me… I just want to sleep* Yep he just asked me to pick my crap up off the floor and empty the garbage -_- Can I just sleep. I’m too lazy. Do it yourself dad. Yeah I’m going to go do my chores quick. Bye.